Christmas Without You

Christmas isn’t Christmas now that you’re not here

But then again it’s not the same any day of the year

I’ve tried to decorate as you, but miss your magic touch

It doesn’t look to bad I say, if that should count for much

The window at church looks wonderful and grand

I feel it in my heart you must’ve given a guiding hand

The candle lighting in the church won’t be the same this year

But then there aren’t as many, that’s rules and reg’s I fear

There’s emptiness in my heart and soul

You’re the missing link and I wish to be made whole

I try to fill the flying hours with activities galore

It helps to fill the great big gap which you so filled before

There is no real antidote for healing the loss and pain

It’s a matter of surviving on the memories that remain

I can talk about you easily as if you’re just away

But then a poignant question brings back that fateful day

Some say the pain will lessen as time goes swiftly by

But that doesn’t seem to happen however hard I try

The house seems always empty and it’s very big to clean

Why did you have to leave me? Oh to think what might have been

It’s odd to have the cards arrive addressed to me alone

But one or two addressed to both make me think you’re home

The present choosing without you is difficult and strange

But with the help of our two girls I’ve covered quite a range

Christmas won’t be Christmas as it used to be

But then again no time will be, as far as I can see

May YOU celebrate Christmas with your family up above

Oh how I wish with all my heart that I could feel your love.

RBA   x1106

My dad wrote all these poems after my mum died to express his feelings.

They are written from the heart.

There are 7 poems in total.

Thank you dad for letting me share them & your feelings .

I love you both.